When the pain subsides

And when this sadness subsides, will I miss it?
When my heart is at peace and my days go by without crying in the pain of grief, will it be alright? Will I be alright?
Will I be able to feel that I deserve to leave behind all the trauma, all what was left on my mind and my body as intruders from times of pestilence and despair? Will I be able to recover who I am?
When these days are no longer here, when the sky above changes latitude but still, remains the same on everybody else’s heads on this World, will I be able to stop the guilt and decide to continue living?
What will it be of me?